Has it really been over a year?

Rather than start this post off with my usual beginning few lines, I'll just skip all that nonsense.

Life has been a bit of an adventure over the past year. SO many things have changed. I'm not even sure where to begin...

I've been working A LOT. Still trying to save up money and buy my own car. I'm not going to lie, I've been slacking in the saving department. I've never been a good saver. I'm better on spending money. Can't take it with you, ya know? But I finally have enough to put a good down payment on something decent. I'm pretty excited but I still haven't found a vehicle that I'm willing to make payments on. Yet. I've been searching and searching so I'm hoping that something will come along soon. Fingers crossed! Luckily, my family and friends have been helping me get to and from places. And work is in walking distance so I walk there quite a bit. Just wish it wasn't so hot outside. My roomie/best friend has helped me get around A LOT over the past year, or so, which has helped out more than anything. What would I do without her?

I'm still living in the same little vacation rental that we moved into last August. I'm not sure how long we're going to be living here but we have been looking for a house to rent. I need more space! I keep wanting to craft and make things but since our condo came fully furnished, there's not much room to add more things. Have no fear, whenever we move, I'll be in full crafting mode! I have so many things that I've been dying to make. I can't wait! I need to start making more headbands too. Just to sell for some extra cash! Plus, they were a great time consumer!

My legs are doing GREAT. I'm sure they could be better, I'm working on going to the gym on a regular basis but it's easier said than done. They don't ache as much as they used to. I'm not sure if I'm just used the aching by now or if they're just a lot stronger. Either way, I'm proud of them! I still can't really stand up off the ground that well but it's getting better every time I try.

I can't believe that it's almost been 3 years since my car accident. Whew! Time sure does fly. Seems like just yesterday when I decided to start my blog to keep everyone updated/vent a bit about what was going on. This blog has really helped me. Sometimes you just need to get it out and relax.

I'm sure I've left out a LOT but I'll post more as the days go on. Hopefully!

Sorry for all the rambling. But that's just what I do.

I hope everyone has been wonderful!

"Everyday we're breathing is a day we've won."

- John Fullbright

Xoxo.

Moving forward.

I'm baaaaaack!

I feel terrible for not writing on here in so long but the truth is, I just haven't had much to write about. When I started this blog, it was to share my recovery and vent a little about everything that was going on. Now that I'm done with surgeries and physical therapy, I just haven't really decided what to write. Hopefully, that will change. And soon.

I finally have a job again! Waitressing at a sports bar in New Braunfels. It feels so great to be working! I missed making my own money. And I forgot how much I actually liked to work. I was a little nervous at first because I'm not used to walking a lot. Wasn't quite sure how my legs would handle it. Surprisingly, my legs are doing fantastic! It's actually my feet that hurt more than anything. This is the most I've walked or stood in a really long time. I've tried a bunch of different shoes with no luck on the outcome of pain at the end of my shifts. I'm slowly building my tolerance back up, but I'm sure it will still take a while.

My living arrangements are about to change too! After living with my family for almost the past 2 years, I'm finally moving back out in August and getting a place with a friend. I'm beyond excited! Not that I don't love living with my family, I'm just glad to actually have my own little home again. And the best part about it, it's RIGHT on the river. Eek, I'm so pumped! I also want to blow up pictures my x-rays onto canvas' and hang them on my walls. I think that would be a neat thing to do with them and they're unique!

I had a doctor's appointment this morning with my orthopedic doctor. Just a check up to see how my legs are doing and great news, they're doing great! I was a little concerned because now I have a job and have been using them a lot more, but working has actually strengthened them up a bit! I was relieved to hear that. He said that I can pretty much do whatever I want. Minus running. I can't ever run again. Which I'm really okay with because I've never been a runner. The cadaver ligaments in my knees are holding together very nicely too! For those of you who don't know, a cadaver is a corpse. Meaning, I have a dead person's ligaments. I'm not sure of a better way to put that. Anywho, I'm beyond thankful for the donor. And I actually got the idea today to maybe see who the person was. It's not like major organs or anything but without that person donating, my knees wouldn't be working like they do now. If I decided to look them up, I'm not even really sure what I would do with the information. We shall see!

After my doctor's appointment, I stopped by my physical therapy place. It's always great to see everyone that works there! I really, really miss that place. From going there 3 times a week to not going at all, is just weird to me. It almost feels like I have a hole in my schedule. I can't believe that when I started going there, I was in a wheelchair. And in a wheelchair for 5 more months after that. They gave me the strength I needed to get my legs strong enough to walk again. And then they retaught me how to walk. I will never forget that. They are all truly amazing people and I'm so glad to have met them!

I think I've covered a lot of the stuff that's been going on the past few months. So glad that my life is finally getting back to some sort of normal. Still can't believe that it's almost been 2 years since my accident but I think I'm doing really well considering! I'm a very, very happy lady!

I'm going to try my best to keep up with my blog. Maybe I'll start putting reminders in my phone. Don't worry, I'll figure out a good solution and it won't take me as long to write new posts.

"Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful."

Xoxo.

Don't follow me, I'm lost.

Where to begin, where to begin....

It's been 3 weeks since my last day of physical therapy and I'm not going to lie, I miss it. Way more than I ever thought I was going to. It almost feels like a little piece of me is missing now. Never thought I would get so attached to it. But I love and miss it. And everyone that worked there too!

I've been walking a lot lately. My neighborhood has a ton of hills so it makes it a little more challenging than just walking around a boring track. I've been trying to walk at least 2 miles every day. And I actually made a 4 mile walk to a friends house not too long ago. It definitely wasn't easy but I didn't give up. I'm stubborn. By the end of it, I didn't think it was too bad but the few days after, I was extremely sore. The kind of sore I got the day I switched from my wheelchair to my walker. Whew! Kinda teared up just thinking about that. Still can't believe there was a point in time where I couldn't walk.

I have one medical bill left and there's only a few hundred dollars left on it. I have the greatest parents in the world for helping me out through all of this. I seriously don't know what I would do without them. They were so thoughtful to help me with the bills. I'm glad I'm not in debt, it's a huge relief.

I thought by now I'd have a job. Nope. I'm really no where near where I thought I would be by now. I haven't been looking for a job because I have no transportation, which has really sucked. I went to apply at a little cafe down the street from where I live, and I chickened out. For some reason, I was extremely nervous. My face was getting red and I was starting to feel sick. I don't know how I could possibly be nervous to apply for a waitress job. I was a waitress for almost 3 years, and a good one too! I even did promotions for our store and was a trainer. So I don't really understand my nerves. I guess since I haven't worked in almost 16 months, it's a little more nerve-racking than I thought it was going to be. Or maybe I'm just afraid I'll mess up. Oh well, hopefully these damn nerves go away soon. I really miss working.

I'll try to write in here more often. Promise!

"There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind."
- C.S. Lewis

Xoxo.

The end is near.

So as most of you who read my blog know, I got in a car accident 12/06/10 and have been recovering from it ever since. As of yesterday, it's officially been 15 months. While I'm not exactly 100% back to normal, I think I'm pretty darn close! I still get really tired if I stand too long and if I sit to long, my legs get stiff. But hey, those are two very minimal things considering how far I've come!

Tomorrow will be my last day of physical therapy! I can't believe it! I'm actually more sad than excited. I'm going to miss that place. A lot. By the way, the last time that I had therapy, I RAN! Well, kinda sorta ran. I had both of my knee braces on so it was an awkward, slow, waddle-ish run. But I still did it!

My next, and hopefully last, doctors appointment is on May 31st. Yes, that's also my birthday! I can't wait to see what my doctor has to say about my legs!

Now it's time to get my life back together. Not sure what I should start with. I need to get a new gym membership, get a new vehicle, find a job, save up money, and find a place to live! Seems like this will take a while but I'm determined to get it all done as soon as possible!

I plan on losing at least 15 pounds by my birthday and getting into the best shape I possibly can. I really need to start tanning too! Ghost white does not look good on me. But tanning isn't a priority, at all.

It's kinda hard to get a job when I don't have a vehicle, yet, I can't buy a vehicle without having a job. Vicious cycle but hopefully I get both sooner rather than later.

"Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out."

- John Wooden

Xoxo.

Where do I go from here?

As I'm getting closer and closer to the end of my recovery, I keep coming back to the same question. Where do I go from here? My life was so much different before my accident.

I'm walking a lot better than I ever could have hoped for. I've pushed and pushed myself to get to this point. It's been a really long journey and oddly enough, I'm kinda sad to see it coming to an end. Wow, that's something I never thought I'd say.

So where do I go from here?

I need a vehicle, job, money saved up, and a place to live. In that order, kinda.

I finally got released to work. I've been waiting for this for a long time and honestly, I'm scared out of my mind. I love to work, I really do. I'm a workaholic. But it's been almost 15 months since I've actually worked. I haven't applied for jobs or been to an interview in almost 4 years. My last job, I had for a long time but I don't want to go back there. Actually, I refuse to go back. But now I have no idea where I actually want to get a job. Or where I can get a job. I can't have a job sitting down all day, or standing all day, or even walking all day. So what do I do? Where can I find a job where I can do a little of all three? Help!

I have kinda been debating on going back to school too. I'm not entirely sure what I want to do. There's a few things I have in mind but I guess I'll have to figure all of that out when the time comes! Hopefully I can find something that I will actually want to stick with. I don't want to go to school and then change my major a thousand times. I hate wasting money and time. We shall see how things turn out!

Until then, I'll keep asking the same question I've been asking myself....

Where do I go from here?

Xoxo.