Don't follow me, I'm lost.

Where to begin, where to begin....

It's been 3 weeks since my last day of physical therapy and I'm not going to lie, I miss it. Way more than I ever thought I was going to. It almost feels like a little piece of me is missing now. Never thought I would get so attached to it. But I love and miss it. And everyone that worked there too!

I've been walking a lot lately. My neighborhood has a ton of hills so it makes it a little more challenging than just walking around a boring track. I've been trying to walk at least 2 miles every day. And I actually made a 4 mile walk to a friends house not too long ago. It definitely wasn't easy but I didn't give up. I'm stubborn. By the end of it, I didn't think it was too bad but the few days after, I was extremely sore. The kind of sore I got the day I switched from my wheelchair to my walker. Whew! Kinda teared up just thinking about that. Still can't believe there was a point in time where I couldn't walk.

I have one medical bill left and there's only a few hundred dollars left on it. I have the greatest parents in the world for helping me out through all of this. I seriously don't know what I would do without them. They were so thoughtful to help me with the bills. I'm glad I'm not in debt, it's a huge relief.

I thought by now I'd have a job. Nope. I'm really no where near where I thought I would be by now. I haven't been looking for a job because I have no transportation, which has really sucked. I went to apply at a little cafe down the street from where I live, and I chickened out. For some reason, I was extremely nervous. My face was getting red and I was starting to feel sick. I don't know how I could possibly be nervous to apply for a waitress job. I was a waitress for almost 3 years, and a good one too! I even did promotions for our store and was a trainer. So I don't really understand my nerves. I guess since I haven't worked in almost 16 months, it's a little more nerve-racking than I thought it was going to be. Or maybe I'm just afraid I'll mess up. Oh well, hopefully these damn nerves go away soon. I really miss working.

I'll try to write in here more often. Promise!

"There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind."
- C.S. Lewis

Xoxo.