The best things in life aren't things.

Today was 10 times better than yesterday, and yesterday was pretty great!

I went to physical therapy again and stood for a whole minute! It was awesome! I've usually had help standing but today I did it all on my own. I didn't even use my hands to get up, which I've never done before. I think saying that I was excited would be an understatement. I'm pretty sure that my right leg is also straight now. It's still needs a little work but it has improved so much! My straight leg raises are finally almost perfect!

I hinted to my physical therapist, again, that Monday will be exactly 6 weeks from my last surgery. You know, just so she wouldn't forget. She said she's going to call my doctor on Monday and see what he says and that I need to bring my walker with me to my next appointment anyways just incase he told her it was okay for me to use it. Yay! I've been waiting for the day she tells me to bring it and it's finally come! My next appointment is Wednesday the 6th, which will also be exactly 4 months since my accident and not walking. I think it would be the perfect day to start putting weight on my left leg and beginning to use the walker. It'll take a while before I can only use the walker but I'm glad I'm finally going to get started on it.

I'm one step closer to walking. I'm so excited!!

In unrelated news, I went to the store today and got the rest of the things I needed to make my new headband. I'm excited to see how it will turn out! I'll post pictures whenever I finish it.

Xoxo.

The best is yet to come.

I started wearing shoes again at the beginning of the month so that I could start standing on my right leg. It feels good to wear them again. I won't be able to wear heels for a really long time so it looks like I'm going to be sticking to sneakers and flats for a while. As long as I'm walking around, I don't think I'll really care what I'm wearing on my feet.

Today was an amazing day at physical therapy!

I now start off my sessions riding the bike. I was doing it for 6 minutes but today moved up to 10 minutes. Woo!

When I first started standing on my right leg a couple weeks ago, I was standing 5 times for 5 seconds each. Then I moved up to 8 times for 5 seconds each and so on. Today I stood 10 times. The first 5 times were for 10 seconds, then I did 4 times at 20 seconds, and the last one was for 30 seconds! It may not seem like a long time but considering I have to balance on just my right leg without an ACL, which I probably couldn't even do before because I'm a little clumsy, I'm doing a pretty good job!

My main focuses have been building my muscles back up, straightening, and bending. My right leg is about 2 degrees off from being completely straight, which is really good! My physical therapist measured my bending again today too. Which is one of the things I look really forward to, it actually shows me how much process I'm really making. Last week, my left leg was being at 95 degrees and my right leg was bending at 125 degrees. Today, the left one is bending at 125 degrees and the right one is bending at 133 degrees. I was so thrilled whenever she told me the measurements. My hard work is paying off and it's really starting to show!

Monday will be exactly 6 weeks since my last surgery which means.... I can finally start putting weight on my left leg! I can't wait. I hope the next couple of days fly by.

I'm a very happy girl today!

Xoxo.

I go back to December all the time.

I know I already wrote on here once today but I needed to get some things off my mind.

I went out to dinner with the family tonight at Salt Grass. I'm not a huge fan of that place. It's way over priced. Luckily, they do have the best baked potato soup ever! If you've never had it, I highly recommend it. Anyways, I'm not writing this blog to talk about dinner. Just thought I'd add that tid bit in there.

I've only ridden in the car a few times at night since my accident, which was also at night. The other times that I've been in the car at night, I was in the back seat and it completely freaked me out. Today I rode in the front seat on the way home. I thought things might be different and that my fear of being in a moving vehicle at night would go away but I'm still freaked out and being in the front seat only made it worse. Every time I looked to the side of the road, my heart started to race and my mind wandered back to that night. I'm not sure if it's the night time or the fear of running off the road that freaks me out, maybe it's a combination of the two. All I know is that I hope I one day won't be afraid anymore. I know that eventually this will all be just a distant memory, I just wish I could fast forward to that time.

Xoxo.

The sun doesn't always shine.

It's very icky outside today. Usually, I would complain because it makes my legs ache and I wake up due to the weather and discomfort. Apparently when you have a metal plate and a bunch of screws in your body, that's what happens. Today is different though, I don't have any aching discomfort in either legs! I'm excited. I mean, I'll still have this problem in the future but it's good to know it won't necessarily be every time. If you couldn't tell, it doesn't take much for me to get excited anymore. It's the little things in life that make me happy.

I'm a little upset that my physical therapy appointment got canceled today. I look forward to going to my appointments to get out of the house and make some more progress. Luckily, I'm rescheduled for tomorrow and still go on Thursday. Can't wait! On Monday, it will be exactly 6 weeks from my last surgery, which means I will finally be able to put weight on my left leg. I'm hoping that my physical therapist can call my doctor and get the okay before my next doctors appointment. I will be more than excited if I get to stand on both legs by the end of next week. I'm hopeful. Then the next step is going from using a wheelchair to using a walker. I am definitely look forward to it!

In other news, I finally got a bunch of leather and new fabrics. I've been wanting to make a leather leaf headband for a while now, just haven't been able to go to Hobby Lobby and get supplies. And with the new fabric, I think I'm going to make a few different headbands other than the ones I've already been making. I've also decided that I'm going to teach myself how to crochet and try to make a purse. Who knows, if I get the hang of it pretty easily, I might be a crocheting machine. I'll post some pictures as soon as I get a few things made. I hope everything turns out good!

Xoxo.

Love actually is all around.

I had a very long and eventful weekend. Being up in my wheelchair and doing things a lot makes me extremely tired, very easily. I can't even imagine how easily I'm going to be worn out whenever I start walking again but that'll be a story for a future date.

Friday afternoon, I went to my aunt's house with the rest of my family to start getting everything together for my paternal grandparents' 50th Anniversary party. It was a long evening creating decorations. I made some kusudama flowers, gold with pearl beads in the middle and white with gold beads. My family made an awesome fruit sculpture thing. It was awesome. Almost like Edible Arrangements. It was yummy!

Saturday, I woke up early to get ready for the festivities of the day. I decided to wear a nice outfit and makeup for the occasion since I hardly ever do that anymore. It felt nice to get all prettied up! The anniversary party turned out to be a great success. Our whole family and a lot of their friends showed up. It was nice to see all their friends that came and helped make their day a special one. My cousin made an amazign slideshow full of pictures of them and our family while Remember When by Alan Jackson played in the background. I don't think there was a single person that didn't tear up. My aunt also had a plaque made to commemorate their 50 years together. After the party, our family all went to my aunt's for a barbeque to celebrate some more. It was definitely a great day spent with my amazing family member. I'm lucky to have all of them.

I'm so proud of my grandparents on their 50 years together and still loving each other every day. At the end of the year, my maternal grandparents will have their 50th Anniversary too! I'm so happy for all of them. Not many people spend 50 years together and it's amazing to see how incredible both sets of my grandparents are. Through thick and thin, they've made it.

"All you need is love."

Xoxo.

Everything happens for a reason.

I'm new to the whole blog thing. I've been debating for a while whether or not I should make one and I'm finally caving in. I'm a rambler so most of my blogs will probably just be me rambling about different things. I've been keeping myself busy with a couple of different things and now this will be one of them.

To start everything off, I got in a car accident December 6, 2010.

R.I.P. Dora

Dora was the name of my Explorer.

I was driving, I either fell asleep or an animal ran out in front of me; everything is still hazey, and rolled my Explorer 3 times. I've never really been a fan of seatbelts but it truly saved me. I'm a very lucky lady.

I had a few minor injuries from my seatbelt; burned neck, burned both of my sides, and I had a bruised lung. Luckily, all of those healed within a few days after my accident. I also had quite a few major injuries to the lower half of my body. On my left knee I tore my meniscus, ACL, LCL, and PCL. On my right leg; I broke my right knee and tore my ACL, broke my ankle, and broke my fibula. I'm so thankful that none of my injuries are going to have long term effects. I've had 2 major surgeries and might possibly have another one, which I'm really hoping that I won't have to have. I have pictures of everything but I feel like it'd be too much to post on my first blog. From now on, I'll post things as they happen.

I haven't been able to walk since the accident. It's definitely been a long process through doctor's appointments, surgeries, and physical therapy. My doctor said I should be able to walk again by May, which I'm very excited for since my birthday is May 31st!

I've come a long way since everything has happened. My main focus has been straightening and bending both legs. Not using them has made me lose a lot of muscle so I've been working really hard to build all of it back up. I can't put weight on my left leg until after April 4th but I've slowly been standing longer and longer on my right leg. I really enjoy going to physical therapy, I get so excited every day that I go because I know that I'll somehow be making more and more progress with every session. Today I actually stood on my right leg without any help! It was an amazing feeling. Never take walking for granted. I also got in the front seat of my dad's truck for the first time too, by myself! I haven't rode in the front seat in over 3 months so it felt kind've weird, almost like I was a little kid that had never before ridden in the front seat.

I've been trying to keep a positive attitude throughout all of this. It'll do me no good to be bitter and upset. Afterall, everything happens for a reason. Things happen and you have to learn how to deal with them the best way that you can. I've been keeping busy by reading books, making kusudama flowers, and making headbands. I really love the headbands, they're fun and cute. I'm pretty sure all of my friend's will have one by the time that I'm all better. It's amazing all the awesome things that you can learn on the internet. I love tutorials and I thank everyone that posts them!

Since all of this, I have learned how many truely amazing people I have in my life. My family has been so great through all of this. I don't even know how to begin to thank them for all of the things that they have done so far and the things that they will do in the future. I love them very much! I'll tell ya, I also have some of the most amazing friends in the world. I wouldn't trade them for anything. They've been so supportive and I'm thankful to have all of them in my life. I'm not sure how I would have got through all of this without my family and friends.

I'm not sure I've covered everything that I wanted to but I'm getting really tired and my brain is starting to go in a million different directions. I think you can pretty much get the gist of everything. I'm going to try and write at least once or twice a week, depending on the events that happen. I might even get blog happy and do one every day. We shall see.

Xoxo.